My Brother's Madness
PART 1
LUNCH WITH CITIZEN X
My brother Claude arrives late for my wedding on Columbus Day, 1985, looking drawn, his blond hair limp with sweat, blue eyes peering from dark wells over a pasted smile. He has driven his Datsun for over four hours from West 75th Street on a day when the last autumnal flares of red and gold burst like Roman candles in the Adirondack foot hills. On the steps of the Friend's Lake Inn, his pale face stands out from the hundred-odd guests as Judge Austin hears our vows, and Bill Bronk, former New York State poet laureate, reads a poem. My attention drifts between my bride Carol, stunning in a halo of baby's breath, and my brother, who appears as glazed as the ice-filled tureen on the buffet.
After the ceremony, I buttonhole him in front of the salmon mousse. The problem, he tells me, is his new job at University Hospital. Co-workers at the lab are laughing at him and whispering behind his back. Going to work is becoming more difficult every day. He isn't sure how long he can continue to do it.
Claude's phone calls over the following months become increasingly urgent. He says his colleagues are not even attempting to disguise their contempt for him. Men in suits watch him from the doorway, follow him to lunch, report on his movements.
I press him to explain; why should he be subjected to such relentless ridicule and extraordinary surveillance?
My brother doesn't know.
I report to our Uncle Irving over the phone: "I can't tell if what he's saying is real, imaginary or both."
Reviews of My Brother's Madness
"In this searching, deeply emotional memoir, [Pines] explores his relationship with his troubled younger brother Claude, a paranoid schizophrenic, and the choices one makes under the pressure of family responsibility. Employing his skills as a psychotherapist, Pines unravels the mystery and evolution of Claude's illness...'I recognized that I could not run away from the relationship with my brother,' says Pines. 'I had to stop seeing it as an antagonist. What I had viewed as the greatest burden, was in fact the greatest source of wealth."
Kirkus Reviews
Take what pain, hope, sorrow, and madness there is in this world, pass it through the alembic of an educated sensibility and a deep, informed compassion, and you might be lucky enough to reach My Brother's Madness. Paul Pines has achieved just this: a story both profoundly personal and universal, an exploration of the trials of family, the breaking points in our psyche's powers, and yet the capacity of compassion to ride the worst of storms all the way home.
James Hollis, Ph. D.
Jungian Analyst, and author of Why Good People Do Bad Things.
Often when I read the first lines of a Paul Pines poem, a shiver goes through me as though I have been touched by something elemental and mysterious in my own soul, a secret truth I didn't quite know that could change my life. In My Brother's Madness Pines has focused his lyrical power on a story of family dysfunction that will have an aching familiarity to readers. This tender and troubling book captures the hilarities, poignant victories and deep regrets that define our lives.
Fred Waitzkin, author of Searching For Bobby Fisher
"…one of the most moving, familial, shocking and, ultimately, healing tales."
E.M. Broner, author of Weave of Women
In this beautifully written, achingly honest memoir, Paul Pines explores one of the crucial questions of all time: Am I My Brother's Keeper? As Claude sinks deeper into a paranoiac state, Paul struggles to keep him afloat at the same time that he examines the sins/omissions of parents so narcissistic that their children are reduced to mere shadows. Few books nourish the psyche and stir the heart as much as My Brother's Madness.
David Unger, author of Life in the Damn Tropics
With unflinching honesty, My Brother's Madness charts the impossible tangle of loyalty, kindness, bravery, and bitter conflict in the terrible intimacy between the ill and the well. In calm and lucid prose, Pines has much to say about the pains of responsibility and the lurching paths of hope. A remarkable book.
Joan Silber, 2004 National Book Award Finalist for Ideas of Heaven: A Ring of Stories
MY BROTHER’S MADNESS was recently reviewed in The Daily Gazette of Schenectady Gazette.
My BROTHER’S MADNESS was recently reviewed in The Press Republican of northeastern New York state. "My Brother's Madness' insightful, hopeful Glens Falls author Paul Pines tells of his relationship with his brother, Claude, who suffers from paranoid schizophrenia, investigating an ever-shifting dynamic between siblings."
MY BROTHER’S MADNESS was recently reviewed in Schizophrenia Digest, Winter, 2008
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My BROTHER’S MADNESS was recently reviewed in Kirkus Reviews as well as Publishers Weekly.
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